Time Escapes me

Over time, time and again. The concept of time escapes from my head
Time to escape. leave this place of pain.
At it again, awake, numb, coming undone.
Time for control. Take back my life once more.
Time to get out of my head. Oh not again.

Why am I just standing here?
Staring off into space...

I feel myself not wanting to move, this scares me. As time moves through me, corrodes me.
I just don't care at times.
Other times I care too much.
Always being pulled back and forth like a yo-yo.

I am lost.
I stop to think, breathing in deep.
Time is on my side, I tell my self.
But is it really?
I want to hide, to not think of what this all could mean.
Is it just me, in my head, like a day dream.

The reality is I feel paralyzed, unable to get my body to move like I want it to.
Should I just let go? relinquish control of my mind. Let my heart and soul take over?
I just don't know

For Time alone Escapes me....

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