Energy Clearing
An interesting thing happened last night. I noticed I was very agitated. Holding on to Anger. Long term anger can manifest as irritability. This was so intense for me, that I was vibrating in shakiness. Not a good feeling. So as I went to bed, I decided to clear away this energy. Little did I realize how much crud I was still holding on to.
Let me explain. You see, I never liked the emotion of Anger. In fact I was utterly terrified to ever express this Emotion. Growing up, My parents fought a lot. I hated confrontation. I tried to avoid this at all costs. My Dad was also drinking a lot and a Major Ass. Now I say this with Love now. You might be thinking What? Why would you ever say this about your Dad. Well He knows this is true. He calls things as he sees them and really is not at all good at relationships. This comes from his upbringing, Our relationship now is really good. After 30 years I finally have a Dad. I love him, and know who he is. This in turn, has helped me understand more how I am. A sensitive person learning who She is, standing in her awesome Power.
So, anyway, I digress. I don't like Anger. But last night I was so Mad!!!!! I had no idea why, until I realized, how I was holding Anger inside myself. I brought up all the memories of feeling hurt, vulnerable and so utterly alone. Do you know what it is like to be called a cripple for the first time? I was in shock. I didn't know that the cerebral palsy had such an impact. I am working on my own integration at this time. Realigning my body, mind and soul.
As I let go of all the hurt I felt even more relaxed. I think my body craves relaxation like others crave for hunger. My body is desperately seeking relaxation. Cerebral palsy prevents me to just relax, So I am learning if my mind is at ease, the rest will follow.
You want to know what happened next? I flooded my body with love. OMGEES! that was so Amazing! I have no words to describe this feeling. No other thought or Emotion entered my body, Only LOVE. I urge you to try it. So Amazing. Hugs to you all 💜💜💜
Let me explain. You see, I never liked the emotion of Anger. In fact I was utterly terrified to ever express this Emotion. Growing up, My parents fought a lot. I hated confrontation. I tried to avoid this at all costs. My Dad was also drinking a lot and a Major Ass. Now I say this with Love now. You might be thinking What? Why would you ever say this about your Dad. Well He knows this is true. He calls things as he sees them and really is not at all good at relationships. This comes from his upbringing, Our relationship now is really good. After 30 years I finally have a Dad. I love him, and know who he is. This in turn, has helped me understand more how I am. A sensitive person learning who She is, standing in her awesome Power.
So, anyway, I digress. I don't like Anger. But last night I was so Mad!!!!! I had no idea why, until I realized, how I was holding Anger inside myself. I brought up all the memories of feeling hurt, vulnerable and so utterly alone. Do you know what it is like to be called a cripple for the first time? I was in shock. I didn't know that the cerebral palsy had such an impact. I am working on my own integration at this time. Realigning my body, mind and soul.
As I let go of all the hurt I felt even more relaxed. I think my body craves relaxation like others crave for hunger. My body is desperately seeking relaxation. Cerebral palsy prevents me to just relax, So I am learning if my mind is at ease, the rest will follow.
You want to know what happened next? I flooded my body with love. OMGEES! that was so Amazing! I have no words to describe this feeling. No other thought or Emotion entered my body, Only LOVE. I urge you to try it. So Amazing. Hugs to you all 💜💜💜
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