PAO surgery Post-op week 4
It has been a month, since my hip preservation surgery. I can't help but feel so utterly alone in this journey. In the beginning, I thought I was super woman and invincible. But now? Now I feel just tired. My soul long to return home. I just have to get through each day, joyful. Yet, I struggle. This is so hard! I am in pain and no one gets how exhausting all this really is. It tests me. I have destroyed relationships. I am changing as a person. I want to believe it is for the better. But right now, I just want to snuggle up with my pillow and blanket and cry. I keep asking am I really Healing? Or am I just deceiving everyone, including me? I also wondering how I can continue doing this on my own? It soon became apparent that although all people in my circle want to help me, I even asked help, when I was at my worst, they all fled and rejected me... I think I am okay, because ultimately this particular journey is only for me to know and travel on. You can walk with me, Take my hand...