The Fight

I wish you were here so I can say how mad I am! There is a logic that suggests I should not be, because you are not here. Out of respect I should not speak....

But in my heart I am mad.

Mad because you let time take away your health. You died. I hate what I am left with. I lifetime of memories and pain. You kicked me out. let me go. I was lost to you. I was not your dream. Your hope.

Why? oh why then did you push me so hard to get up and fight? when you so easily gave up on life and just died?

I hate that you invade my thoughts and dreams. I just want to let you go. I don't want to need you so much that it hurts. I am hurt that you never saw me, and yet I am a part of you. I will always be. And this hurts, because I don't want to be.....

I fight everyday not to give into these dark thoughts. I fight everyday because of you. For that I am saying thank you.

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