Scattering Stardust

I don't know how to explain it, but this phrase is always on my mind and constant. It helps somehow. I can see in my minds eye star debris, scattering, exploding. To me, the phenomenon is breathtaking. It gives me a moment to pause breath and focus. At my height of perpetual anxiety, this has helped calm me. As much as I love the support of friends and family, it is not always helpful. Sometimes it is worse. I need at these times to rely on my self. The scattering of stardust was once my universe. I am not sure at this time if I an recreating my old world, starting over, or a little bit of both. Only time will tell. I need to let the dust settle for it all to become clear. Here again I wait....

Until then I watch in awe and wonder as the stars surround me. I am not looking for a forced and specific outcome. I feel I am being gently pulled into the unknown. I am not afraid. In fact I am hopeful. I just wish my anxieties would lay to rest. But they are those very stars that surround me. Therefore I must wait and see if the anxieties turn into blessings I can catch and keep.

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