What I Wish You Knew

I wish you knew, that upon seeing me, you didn't see my weakness.
I wish you knew, that I have fought my daemons, still fighting in fact, and this gives me strength.
I wish you knew, how often you hurt me, that I hold back my venom, so as not to hurt you, I wish at times you knew.
I wish you knew, I am in pain, but I don't want to be treated differently...
I wish you knew, that I am a person, with emotion, not a thing to be thrown away, drifting, broken.
I wish you knew, my head and mind from the inside, to better understand. Instead you assume, judge, because to you I am less than.

I hate to feel weak in the face of you, being ridiculed, laughed at.
How I cry at night, turn away, try to hide, but you are there, in my ear, telling me my own worst fears.

Does this entity have a name, a force so strong it takes my breath away?

Yes, over the years, I have created a dark mass of pain and illness.

I wish you knew, the person I am referring to is you....

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